Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Thankful for Bethany

(This is being linked to the current photo challenge here . )

The other night Bethie woke up quite early in the morning. And cried. And wouldn't be comforted. So finally I got her up and laid with her on the new sofa. And we snuggled.



At other times in my life I may have resented being up with a fussy baby while everyone else got to be sleeping. I knew as I was laying there with her that it would make for a very long day when all the kids woke up and started the day.

But this time I didn't mind. I laid there and treasured the moments. Because just a month earlier we were in the living room, and all the sudden Matt said, "Mama- Beth looks funny." I looked over there and she was laying on her back, not breathing.

All rational though leaves when you see your baby turn blue.




I thought maybe she had choked on something, so I snatched her limp body and tried to remember how to do the Heimlich. I couldn't. I couldn't remember that, I couldn't remember how to do CPR. I couldn't think straight about anything except that my baby wasn't breathing.

She finally started coughing weakly and then breathing normally again. She was dazed for a half hour or so, but soon returned to normal. I don't think I have yet accomplished the same thing.

We went to a pediatric neurologist who ran an EEG... it showed nothing. He sent us to cardiology to do an EKG and that turned up abnormal. So far we don't know anything since we don't see the cardiologist until next Tuesday. It may be a glitch in the machine, and all may be fine. It may be something else. We still have to wait to see. She had a second episode of not breathing just two days ago. I'm a little on edge, to say the least.

So that early morning, Bethie and I laid there and snuggled, and I thanked God that she was here to hug. And I listened to her babble... "Anna. Doggie. Cow. Cat. Meow. Brown Bear, Brown Bear, what do you see?" and on and on and on. But just as I was rubbing her back and reveling in her sweet warmth I heard, "Mommy. I love you Mommy."



And that is what being a Mama is all about. I love you too, Bethie.

17 comments:

  1. Oh my! How horrifying!! My 2 year old had a seizure last May and I know just what you mean about forgetting everything you should know when you need to know it! We're praying for good answers from the doctors for Bethany!

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  2. Beautiful post and great reminder to all us frazzled Moms. The lives we care for and hold are precious gifts.. HUGS to you Mama.. Prayers for Bethie..

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  3. Carri - Thank you for sharing that. I am on year 2 of being up almost every 1-2 hours with one baby or another. Landon has decided for the last week that our days start at 5am. I can get very grumpy about my lack of sleep while all in the house sleep soundly. Our babies are gifts. We are praying for Bethie and you. I think of you each day and wish you were closer.

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  4. Thanks for the reminder that we all need to slow down and value the time we've been given. Love to you all!

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  5. I'm so glad that as of now she is okay. You and Bethi will be in my thoughts. Hug her tight. She is beautiful.

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  6. so thankful she is ok, praying nothing is wrong! enjoy everything life had because you never know when it may be gone...

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  7. Oh how frightening, I glad she's ok.

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  8. Oh boy! I don't think I'd have remembered either but am so glad she is doing better. It's a good reminder to treasure the moments we have with our little ones especially during this busy season. We'll be keeping her next visit in prayer that they can give you an explanation.

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  9. How scary for you!!! God bless you and your family.

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  10. You are so right! What a blessing to able to be there snuggling your precious little girl. My heart and prayers go out to you as you wait for the appointment on Tuesday. I hope you receive some answers to your concerns that are easily dealt with!

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  11. Lovely. Just wonderful. Moving. Beautifully touching. Thank you!

    (Have you heard my similar story? It took me over a year to be 'normal' again. Seriously. (((hugs to you)))

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  12. What a cutie.
    I do hope everything is okay, and you get an answer soon so that this does not repeat again.
    I can't imagine the horror you must've felt.

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  13. Sweet baby...
    Thinking of you as you await the EKG results.

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  14. How absolutely terrifying! I pray you get some answers and solutions!

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  15. Beautiful baby. I wish you the best of luck in your findings. Your captured faces are amazing!

    http://www.tellyouaboutit.com/2010/02/you-capture-challenge-faces.html

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  16. Wow, I like your writing. I will pray for your little one... with love, Michele

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